Moments of Weakness

Okay y'all, I am completely, thoroughly, utterly miserable with my story. I'm guessing it is because I took notes and figured out the ending before I started writing word one. I NEVER know how a story will end because of all the twists and turns my characters seem to take and they always lead me in bizarre directions. Well, I HATE my NaNo story. HATE IT! Have not been motivated much at all this week to write not including a horrible headache a couple of days where I couldn't look at my laptop and my notebook paper was really a really bright white and painful. *sigh* Now my back is hurting because we were cutting down this giant red oak tree yesterday for our outdoor wood stove. The bending/stacking/twisting/moving/turning just killed it. *sigh*

So, my question...since it turns out one of my three main characters is a writer, would it be wrong to say "putting pen to paper, Emma began writing, trying to forget her troubles in the real world and escaping to a happier place..." and then start writing something completely different so I don't have to scrap the word count I already have which just about killed me getting in the first place? I mean I have a really crappy word count, but they're words ya know? And she's a writer. In my NaNo she's already finished a children's story she was working for a couple of years that had her stuck. So it isn't like that is coming from out of left field. And periodically I can interrupt her story for her real life things to put in.

Is that NaNoCheating?

Peace, Love, and Giggles,
Deanna